The new chapter begins

Lately I've been dealing with a lot of stress due to my situation with my rent and my health and we are finally settled in our new office space which is much better than the old space. It is bigger new no slow elevators. As I was riding home from work I receive a text message on the phone saying the lawyer just called me it's done it caught me by surprise but I had been waiting for this moment for a long time. and he sends an andrioid smiling face which I found to be inappropriate and antagonziing. I let him know this he says just happy it's over @@ does he think I wasn't happy it took long enough I think he's been gone on with his life and now it's my turn. I thought I would be so happy and while I am there is a sadness there and feeling of loss. This person was part of my life for over 13 years and that's not something you get past over night. I'm looking forward to this new chapter in my life to start new and get back on track if someone asked me right now if I would every remarry I'd probably say no. Relationships are a lot of work and I felt like I dealt with a lot and settled for siutations that I really shouldn't have. A lot of men's expectations are unrealistic and latino men just seem to want a woman who is a younger version of their mothers being born here in NYC this is very frustrating to me at times. I'm a very independent, liberal thinker and I can cook some dishes but to bust out a huge thing of pasteles made from scratch I'd have to go and buy some or ask my grandfather and pay him for the stuff needed. I want a man who wants a companion besides just someone to cook for him clean the house, etc. Weird how we are in 2013 and there are people who still deal with things like this you'd think people would become more progressive in their thinking as the years go by. Being back on the dating scene I've had a lot of disappointments men who just want to waste women's time and the last draw for me was when I went to go meet someone last friday froze my *** off and they didn't pick up the phone and had the nerve to be insulting to me accusing me of blowing up his phone and being desperate. I was so hurt b/c we had great conversation no sexual stuff and he turned out to be just another douche bag to add to my list of losers. I shut down my mi gente profile which from the pattern I'm seeing attracts nothing but garbage who just want to play games and have casual sex. Right now I just want to focus on me, jr, and the move coming up this summer and getting back to the gym b/c I have gained some weight back dealing with the stress of everything. While this venture to New Jersey is scary b/c I dont really know much of about the state but I can live more affordably which is extrememly important plus good school programs for jr. I'd also like to take a vacation this year even if it's a short one b/c it's been 2 years since I've had a real break.