what's the next step

It's been a while since I've blogged and during this time we went on our much needed vacation to Florida. We did a lot and had a great time I sure did not want to come back to NY. It was very sad to leave my mother behind etc. It's going to be one week tomorrow that we've returned back from our vacation and I still really haven't adjusted to my daily routine here. I've been doing a lot of thinking lately and I find myself coming up with same question where do I go from here? I feel like I want to make a change actually better said I feel like I need to make a change. I loved being over there in florida, the slower pace, the beautiful scenery, the beautiful apartments if you paid $1,000+ over there for an apartment it's a palace not a hall closet or a run down piece of crap that you have to do everything to. I tell myself that there are pros and cons to every situation the biggest con is that I don't drive. I used to drive was never really good at it maybe b/c at the time no one really took the time to teach me how or having the accident was so traumatic for me that I haven't been behind a wheel since. I really don't need to drive here but somewhere is a different story. Another thing is jobs, the economy is bad, you don't earn the same money as here but I guess the lifestyle is a trade off. Lately I've just been feeling that I can be doing better and that we can be living a better life. Today I felt like crap I felt so exhausted and I pryed myself out of bed into the shower and out the front door to the sitter off to the bus and off to work only to feel worse say F# it and leave wk early. I think i'm going to start doing my research and see how to make it happen b/c I'm kind of sick of NY already.

countdown to vacation 4 days

It's been a few weeks since I've blogged many times I don't have the time or the energy to even get on line during the week and trying to type on a swing out keyboard on your cell can get pretty uncomfortable after a while. Lately I've been feeling very tired and worn out and I kept asking myself when the heck is vacation time coming!!! I was so happy when May 1st came and today was a typical long dragging boring Monday with crappy weather to boot. Today was the baby's 18 month visit and he's doing pretty well he weighs 25 lbs, is 33 inches tall and is above average in weight and height I just wish he would says some words but I guess everything will come in due time. I go to check in on vacation hours and it's still not updated and it can get very annoying at times dealing with these people's incompetence. I've been feeling as I'm settling being here and I'm thinking of what my next moves are going to be b/c I know I'm not going to advance where I'm at now and I think I'm pretty smart and have a lot to offer but with child is going to be much harder to attempt to go back to school, etc. with the job situation being so uncertain and all I really want to think what ever I want to do through first b/c regardless of what I feel I do have a steady job now and I don't want to quit b/c I won't be entitled to collect unemployment so I try to hang in there and tune out the bs not a very easy task at times. I sure hope this week flies by b/c I can't wait to get to JFK hop on a plane and say f*@ work, ny, everything for 2 wks and just kick back and relax. I hope tomorrow's weather is better b/c I sure can't stand the rain and traveling in it especially trying to push a stroller and hold an umbrella well I'm exhausted and I hear the bed calling my name so I guess I will end for now.