what's the next step

It's been a while since I've blogged and during this time we went on our much needed vacation to Florida. We did a lot and had a great time I sure did not want to come back to NY. It was very sad to leave my mother behind etc. It's going to be one week tomorrow that we've returned back from our vacation and I still really haven't adjusted to my daily routine here. I've been doing a lot of thinking lately and I find myself coming up with same question where do I go from here? I feel like I want to make a change actually better said I feel like I need to make a change. I loved being over there in florida, the slower pace, the beautiful scenery, the beautiful apartments if you paid $1,000+ over there for an apartment it's a palace not a hall closet or a run down piece of crap that you have to do everything to. I tell myself that there are pros and cons to every situation the biggest con is that I don't drive. I used to drive was never really good at it maybe b/c at the time no one really took the time to teach me how or having the accident was so traumatic for me that I haven't been behind a wheel since. I really don't need to drive here but somewhere is a different story. Another thing is jobs, the economy is bad, you don't earn the same money as here but I guess the lifestyle is a trade off. Lately I've just been feeling that I can be doing better and that we can be living a better life. Today I felt like crap I felt so exhausted and I pryed myself out of bed into the shower and out the front door to the sitter off to the bus and off to work only to feel worse say F# it and leave wk early. I think i'm going to start doing my research and see how to make it happen b/c I'm kind of sick of NY already.