my old friend exhaustion

This weekend was like most cleaning this house and organizing it.  Lately I havent been feeling well and trying to find the time to see the dr is hard when you work full time.  I've been having back pain tightening in my chest and today I really felt bad and I went to the clinic but my blood pressure was normal and the dr who saw me told me it was probably due to my posture in my chair at work which can certainly be true but I want to rule everything out.  I never experienced tightening in my chest until recently.  I notice this happens when I feel stressed out so I try to keep my stress levels low which isn't always easy.  I realize that I have to make time to care for myself and my health b/c without health there is nothing,.  I just felt like this doctor at the clinic was rushing the visit sometimes I feel like that a lot of doctors rush their patients or have a poor bedside manner it's hard to find a good doctor who will listen to your concerns.  I was given two prescriptions and I left.  I had an appointment scheduled for thursday with my regular dr and I will go and hope he can provide some insight the other couldn't I think he's a little detached and impersonal too I think I just might shop around for a new primary dr eventually.  We then went to walmart and after that ate at the olive garden I love the olive garden the ambiance and the food it is italian food but it's not heavy greasy just excellent.  I missed out on dessert this time but it's definitely worth the drive to long island.  I still wasn't feeling well and when I got home I just changed into my pjs and layed down in bed and watched some tv I then felt somewhat better I think one of the problems is lack of adequate rest, it seems like there is always something to do, some where to go and I realize that there are only so many things we can do in a day.  Weekends end too fast and before you know it monday morning arrives again and back to work and the same back and forth routine.  We still have to get oc jr halloween costume and birthday theme.  I think most likely it will be disney cars.  I can't believe that he will be 2 yrs old next month, seems like time flew by so fast.  He is a bundle of energy and wants to be into everything.   He is starting to go down to sleep without a fight again which is good especially when most of the time we're exhausted ourselves.  He goes through his phases where he is difficult to put to bed, etc.  We got him a stool to reach the potty and sink but I think he plays with it more than anything else I can't wait till he is potty trained but this isnt going to be an easy process and many accidents along the way I don't mind the #1 its the #2 that are gross.  I'm so looking forward to my vacation in December b/c I just want to rest and get a break from this fast paced city life.

downtime and halloween nostalgia

I can't believe October is already here it seems like September just flew by so fast.  I just wish autumn in NY would really kick in already b/c I'm really sick and tired of the rainy muggy weather we've been having.  Fall is a beautiful time of the year, the leaves turning nice shades of yellow, red, orange, on our way to Atlas Park yesterday I actually saw some one had a carved out pumpkin on their porch which I thought was cute a reminder that Halloween is this month and we have to get our son's halloween costume.  I used to love Halloween as a child, the excitement of getting a new costume going trick or treating collecting tons of candy and going to halloween parties.  I also remember the mcdonald's coupon you'd get for a free cone, sundae, cookies, apple pie and hamburger those were the best lol I of course loved icecream as a kid so I'd always want the cone and sundae coupons.  We would count up how many we'd get and some years were better than others.  Now Halloween is totally different and I think it's b/c society has changed a lot.  You don't see many trick or treaters now if any and more people just have halloween parties or take their kids to halloween related events like we are taking our son to Sesame Place Halloween Spooktacular.  I think it's changed b/c of safety and people who like to take Halloween to commit crimes and act like idiots.  I remember when people used to go bombing with eggs, shavingcream and how they would also use nair and throw it at ppl which I think is really mean b/c nair and neet is a hairremover.  I think about some of the things I did as a teenager or music I listened back then and I think what the heck was I thinking???  Now I find myself saying these damn teenagers lol like I'm an old fart but I'm far from old but far away from my teen years sometimes I forget I was a teenager once and a small part of me still wishes I was a teenager no responsiblities no bills, hanging with friends that was a good life.  Now I'm married with a child and working full time which I also wish I didn't have to do either I never realized how hard it is to be a parent and a working parent on top of that I can see why my mother after a while stood home b/c it got too be too much for her but that was a different time now if you don't work people look down on you as if you're losing your mind or your lazy meanwhile work at home is way more tiring than office work.  Today was my usual morning routine wake up shower get breakfast ready for jr put cartoons on and off to start cleaning my house and sometimes I do one half per day b/c I don't want spend my entire day cleaning I also deserve a break.  Got paid yesterday and it seems like my check does a disappearing act now you see it now it's gone.  I cleaned out my fridge today and I got rid of old stuff and realize I need to do grocery shopping which I HATE.  I was going to do it yesterday but I had no list and frankly no energy after a long day of work.  I browse the flyers of every supermarket on line before I make the choice of which place we're going b/c I go where I can get the most for my money.  I usually go to Pathmark most of the time but there are times I've gone to Stop & Shop and I've become a member of BJ's to get good deals on meat bulk household items.  Tomorrow I finish the rest of the house and I will go outside and take a walk.  I'm glad to see the sun again for a change.  I'll end it here going to laydown and chill out before the baby's nap is over