weekends are too short

I'm usually so relieved when Fridays come but before you know it Monday is here.  This weekend was mostly organizing cleaning and cooking dinner arrgh.  It seems like there is always something to do in the house and I really wish I knew where all of the junk comes from b/c just when I think I've gotten rid of a lot of stuff more things show up.  This weekend will be another busy one since it's pay day friday and of course you know it errands bills, etc.  if I could only keep it all for me only in a perfect world lol :).  I sure wish this weather would make up it's mind it feels like summer for 3 days then like Fall the next and as if I don't hate Mondays enough they're expecting bad weather tomorrow and Tuesday.  I sure hope it isn't raining hard b/c that will not be good for my commute and having to drop oc jr off at daycare.  I'm hoping I have an easy commute to and from work tomorrow b/c I can't see myself staying another 10+ minutes at work again when i'm done I just want to punch out and leave,.  Friday is already October 1st it seems like this month just flew by so fast just seems like it was September 1st.  I saw the tv commercial for the new Law & Order in LA and I have to say that I'm not really excited about it b/c I think if it's not broke don't fix it.  I love Law & Order all of them and I was really pissed off that they canceled the original it was one of the best ones but as the years went by they started changing around the cast too much and not some of the best actors either so I will look at a few episodes and see if the new show is all that.  Seems like this was the month that all the new tv shows start their new seasons a lot of good shows a lot of garbage too, seems like everyone has a reality show these days there's so no such thing as privacy these days and then people wonder why we have so many problems you have people posting every waking moment on facebook and myspace and sometimes I look at these shows and wonder is the money that good that I'd give up my privacy just to have millions of people look at my daily life and make judgements about me I don't think so.  We're all human and far from perfect no one is at their best behavior all the time and life is pretty darn hard at times. I'm a private person my life is not an open book and I sure don't post my every waking moment on facebook I see people's status sometimes and I wonder do we really need to know that, please! I say be careful what you post on facebook, etc. use the privacy settings b/c there are very unscrupulous people out there who look at things and try to use them against people.  I don't think people status on facebook should be taken too seriously b/c we can all feel a certain way at a certain time of day or we can just be having a bad day we're all human but I've heard of people being fired, etc.  I think that's wrong that an employer can get away with that but that's why I say privacy settings learn them fast and customize postings if necessary.  It can save you a lot of unecessary grief well on that note I'm off to bed I hope the rain will wait till I get to the city to come down

tgif tomorrow

Today is finally thursday seems like this week has dragged on and I'm so glad it's friday tomorrow.  I'm very tired from the commuting back and forth and today while there was some work to do it was very slow and me being tired doesn't help me feeling lazy and sort of bored.  Within the next few weeks there will be two baby showers at the office and I was looking at some gift ideas on carters.com and I have to say that it brought memories back when I was pregnant with my son I'd go to the store and see all of these adorable little clothes, blankets, etc.  when I went online today to look at a few outfits I saw so many cute things for a few seconds it made me want to have another lol but I quickly came back to my senses.  I'm sure they're going to a wonderful shower for this individual and I want to get something nice what I've tried to advise is a lot of things that they advertise on these baby registries you really don't need.  What you really need are the basics and this will vary depending on the time of year your baby is born.  Blankets, t shirts, one piece suits and onesies bottles diapers, crib, bottles, good stroller and a carseat.  I can tell one of them is becoming tired as you turn in the last few months of pregnancy you're tired, everything seems to give you heart burn and trying to sleep at night becomes very difficult and commuting on the subways is no picnic.  It was a mix of nervousness and excitement at the same time and it seems like time has flown by so fast b/c my son will be 2 yrs old in November and it seems like time has passed by so fast it seems like just yesterday that he was coming home from the hospital.  Today he bit again, the same child, we try to be patient but it's not easy and I found out the child had two bruises which made me feel bad but I'm told this is a stage that toddlers go through and while that may be I also know how some parents are and maybe they'll only be understanding to a point and eventually the daycare will tell me not to bring him back which is my biggest fear as I mentioned in my mobile blog b/c it's very hard to find an affordable daycare provider these days and forget about affordable pre schools.  We do tell him not to bite in a stern voice but I've been told by my mother who was a teacher in a daycare that this is something they grow out of well I sure hope it's soon b/c it's stressful and I'm always thinking i'm going to get a call or when I pick him up they will tell us its his last day b/c she obviously doesn't want to lose any children b/c of the biting situation and I can't say I blame her I try to reverse the situation and think what if it was my child being bit I'd probably get mad after a while too and wonder why the child is still there or if this provider was even properly supervising the kids which does to come to mind sometimes I know she told the parents again and mentioned my son's name again this is something that's a strict no no in some places b/c there are parents that will confront others and the situation will get ugly very fast.  In many situations the parents are worse than the kids at the end of the day kids will be kids but some "adults" forget they're the adults.  On my way home today I was actually suprised the J train came fast but got full fast so I was glad my other train was waiting right across so I can sit down and relax.  I go in and see this person who rudely tries to squeeze into this narrow space between two customers and I was like wth is wrong with ppl this what I mean by rude and selfish you obviously don't fit there the lady was annoyed and the guy too and she made a comment along the lines of I know it's hard for u to move boy she's lucky she didn't tell me that b/c I would've said no it's hard for u to see that you don't fit here yet you insist on squeezing in between us. I wont' be squished I will just get up and move I've done it in the past.  I then breathe and the guy next to me smells I'm like darn what is it with me do I have the worst luck or what!!! Not sure if it was him or the hoody he had on either way I couldn't wait for him to get off the train lol.  I think they need to pass out free samples of soap, deodorant, mouthwash, etc.  I hope I have better luck tomorrow on my ride to and from work.  Tomorrow is Friday my favorite day of the week and it's supposed to be 88 degrees kind of weird went Fall is supposed to start soon I guess this is our last dose of summer weather hope it will be a dry 88 degrees and not a humid one.  Well it's after 10 and time for me to get to bed or I will not get up in time tomorrow. 

subway and bus etiquette

Based on the article I posted from am ny on my fb pg I came up with some subway etiquette of my own they just did a pretty basic run down. 

1. Move away from the doors please how else will we enter and exit the train?
2. Let others off the train first instead of running inside like a herd of cattle
3. The word excuse me should be a daily part of your vocabulary
4. Unless you're a DJ and want us to get up and dance to your music, that's the purpose of headphones use them
5. Cell phone we all talk and use our cell phones but please be mindful I as well as others don't care to hear about your last night escapade, drama, etc. etc. sometimes I just feel like saying stfu or "tell the whole world"
6. If you bump into someone apologize it will save you a lot of grief
7. Don't hog up the pole especially when the train is crowded hold it like the rest of us do
8. Sit on the seat right especially for men I understand you need space but not that much
9. Respect others personal space
10. Please practice good personal hygiene no one wants to smell your BO or your bad breath! especially if a train is crowded and I have no where to go to escape!
11. Please keep pdas private a kiss or hug or hand holding is ok but down right make out sessions keep it private or rent a room
12. Eating try not to if you must please clean up after yourself. 
13. Subway performers if you see that you're not getting anyone's attention proceed to the next car and try your luck there
14. Don't sneeze out in the open!  It spreads germs.  Cough into your elbow not on the subway pole
15. Keep your bags off the seats and PLEASE hold on to the pole so you don't fall into anyone's lap.
16. One size doesn't fit all if you don't fit in a seat or space don't try to squeeze into it and bang people on the sides
17. If you're waiting for the bus for 15 minutes or more don't wait till there's a whole crowd of people waiting to get on the bus to finally realize your metrocard has a zero balance, this is a no brainer especially if you're right across the street from the train station!!!!
18. If you have no money don't get on the bus! We all have places to go and people to see!

This is based on my daily commute back and forth to work around this great city of ours.  Your feedback is welcomed.

tornado type storm

This past thursday was a normal day at work I knew we were expecting some heavy rain and as always I always hope I make it home before the bad weather starts and that my husband doesn't get stuck at work and I have to pick up my son b/c I'm always afraid that I will get caught with my son outside in bad weather I hate thunder and lightning it scares the crap out of me anyway I got home and I have to admit the skies looked very dark gray and pretty scary but the last thing I would've imagined was that we would get a tornado type storm especially in NYC of all areas.  Well in the evening all of a sudden I hear the loud boom of thunder and I hear the rain coming down very heavy and then the strong wind it didn't even sound normal it sounded like a loud screeching and it scared the heck out of me i'm sure some hail came down too what I didn't expect was for the storm to cause the damage it did.  In my area of queens there were several trees that got damaged three blocks were closed down due to damaged trees one of them falling on top of a pick up truck and many down power lines, the tree clean up crews and Con Ed was pretty busy that day.  I wake up Friday morning and I hear that all of the trains were messed up and my train was suspended and I think darn it would be a mission for me to get to the J and L train after dropping my son off so I said screw this I'm staying home I didn't know how long it was going to take for them to fix the mess and I sure didn't feel like going through an obstacle course just to get to work late and have to stay late and on top of that my usual tiredness from the whole week said I'm staying home lol.  I then went to drop off my son and I have to walk on the other side of the street b/c an entire tree branch blocked the way, the buses were unbelievably crowded I had to let two full buses pass by until the third one came and I finally got on it.  I had a "me" day on friday and it felt good to have some time to myself.  Middle Village, Queens got pretty messed up lots of damaged trees, power lines and messed up sidewalks Park Slope also got it bad i'm sure other places got it bad too but those are the ones I just hear about in the news.  I hear the clean up is going to be pretty costly, with all of the down power lines I'm suprised we didn't lose our power.  I think we New Yorkers should take this storm as a wake up call and ask ourselves are we really prepared to deal with a major natural disaster should it strike NYC? I don't think we are we're not used to dealing with hurricanes, tornadoes on a regular basis like a lot of southern states and other parts of the country.  I try to always have working flash lights candles batteries battery operated radio but how about food, etc.  Most people aren't prepared like they should be and most are too busy dealing with daily day to day life but this storm should be an eye opener that we need to prepare ourselves just in case.  I'm going to upload some pictures eventually when I figure out how to do it lol.  I'm just glad that it's over and hope it doesn't happen again but we really never know with mother nature. 

good start to my day annoying end

Today was a typical Monday where I felt very lazy unmotivated and didn't want to get out of bed.  I got ready and was running late so I missed the bus which I hate b/c usually the second bus comes much more fuller with school kids and people going to work like myself and there aren't always seats in front where it's safer for me to get off the bus with the baby. I'm surprised that I'm still awake as I'm usually in bed by this time.  I was surprised the bus actually exactly on schedule but I won't get used to that as it's a rare occurrence.  There was a decent amount of work to do in the office today which at times I don't mind b/c the day goes faster and it distracts me from all of the chatter sometimes and music just helps you be in a better state of mind.  Today I completed and signed my processing form today so my permanent title will be Secretary  tomorrow is the hiring pool and while it's only a technicality I'm still nervous and I'm eager to check out other City agencies to see more or less what the duties of the new title are in different places.  I notice how I mentioned my good news to someone and they didn't respond positively to it which makes me  kind of realize sometimes people are full of it and are always sipping the patron bottle of haterade.  You have to throw your own party for yourself sometimes I'm always happy to see others succeed I've never been an envious person that's just a waste of time.  Lately this individual has been annoying seems like I'm going to start the face book deletion crusade again.  Today I went on my lunch break to buy a pair of business slacks for tomorrow and it made me realize how much I hate shopping they're always changing the cut of clothes making figuring out what size I wear a guessing game depending on the style.  I was super late back to work but I didn't care I needed the pants and have no time after work so I rushed back on the R train downtown and it seemed like I flew back to City Hall in no time before anyone noticed not even the office stool pigeon blinked an eye lol.  On my ride to work today I also realized how darn rude and selfish some people are a woman came on the train with a stroller with a very young infant and a small but older child not one person offered to give her a seat the small child sat next to me and I saw the baby crying a lot and the mother trying to tend to it standing up yet no one budged. I thought wtf is wrong with people so I gave up my seat I'm a mother I know how hard it is to travel with a small child on the subway which is why I avoid it all costs b/c first subways are dirty and they're all full of bunch of aholes.  The baby seemed to calm down after that.  When I was pregnant I always didn't get a seat either ppl act like they don't see you yeah right I only had a stomach the size of a freakin watermelon jerko!   I remember once this guy actually told me to move so his pendeja squeeze could sit down I looked at him like wtf? are you kidding me? I'm the pregnant one who got way before you did and you want me to move? Some ppl in this city truly deserve the name ahole in fact there should be a daily idiot, daily a-hole award,  rude subway rider, etc. and there would never be short of nominees that's for sure and subway seats should come with seat ejectors I sound disgruntled I know but commuting in this city is a real pain the *** a lot of times.  On my way to 34 St today on our car we encountered the lovely or should I say annoying subway performers who do break dancing on the train I hate it it's annoying and very dangerous I almost got hit in the stomach when I was pregnant by one of those jerks "performing" in the aisle and what a coincidence there was a pregnant woman in our train when I saw them start I moved b/c if they would've hit me that's it.  Sometimes you just want some peace and serenity on your ride you don't want to hear no bs no one performing no one asking for money no one trying to sell you a bridge or bootleg dvds this is why you always need a good book and charged up mp3 player to tune out all the crap.  Today I had to pick my child at the last minute b/c my husband ran late I call sitter to tell her I'm running late twice no answer I finally get there and see here talking with another parent and it seemed like no one was watching the children inside which pissed me off I get my son and when we go to wait for bus I smell something bad and not only that she gives me my son with a soiled diaper I was pissed off I'm like not only do you not answer your phone your too busy talking smack with someone to realize he needed to be changed. I'm sure once we got on the bus other ppl smelled it too so I hoped the bus would go fast and it did so I cleaned him up once we got home but these are the times where I wish I could afford pre-school not that any place is 100% but I have to keep looking until we find something affordable.  No one will take care and do for your child like you do.   On that note it's way past my time to be awake I should've been in bed 40 minutes ago well off to bed I go tomorrow is a big day and I hope everything will work out for the best.

9/11 9 yrs later

Yesterday was 9/11 and I can't believe that it's been 9 years since it happened.  I wasn't living in NY at the time when it happened and in a way I'm glad I wasn't here b/c it was mass chaos from what I saw on CNN in Florida at the time and from what I heard from people and former coworkers.   I'm grateful that I didn't lose anyone but my condolences go out to the victims and their families who will eternally mourn the loss of their loved ones.  I remember my former coworkers telling me how it took 3 and 4 hours to get home from work and they were expected to be business as usual at the office wtf! are you kidding? A bunch of terrorists just attacked the lower half of Manhattan and you expected people to be "business as usual" no way! That was the talk of a shrewd money hungry person that's corporate america greed for you another reason greed is why this economy and country are in such a sad state of affairs but that's another blog posting in itself.   Had I been here I would have thanked the lord for saving my life and of my family but I would've been HOME the city was in immense danger and 9 years later I still think we are the only difference is that we're a lot better prepared now should something happen which I hope it never will.  I think about why it happened?  If our president at the time knew of these so called weapons of mass destruction how come more wasn't done to protect the American people.  I think the 1993 bombing should have been a wake up to beef up security in that area like crazy but they didn't take precautions and 9/11 was the end result.    It hurt me so bad to see people jumping to their deaths rather than perishing it almost seemed like a scene out a movie but it was real life happening right before our eyes.  All because of a bunch of religious extremists who felt the need to take out their aggressions out on a city of innocent people who were average working people trying to support their families and live life this big city of ours.   When I saw ground zero for the first time when I return to New York I burst into tears and cried for a few minutes I couldn't believe what I saw in front of me.  The WTC was nothing but a big empty space and mangled metal, etc. it was nothing like the WTC I remembered and will never be again.  I remember when I was going to school in the area in the late 90's how different things were. The shopping concourses of WTC how I would go to borders books and read there for hours and sometimes I'd actually buy a book or two or how I would just browse and buy a hot dog from the vendor in front of 5 World Trade.  I remember so much about the area the Conway, the office supplies store where i'd go get something for school, I'd meet my mother after work at her job at the time so many memories gone.   Now lower Manhattan is nothing like it used to be back in the day it's become commercialized, very expensive, and too many yuppies are in the area so the average person can't really do much there.  I call it yuppie land b/c that's what it caters to now.  Conway is now gone luxury apartments, chiptole grill btw crappiest most overpriced chopped up crap I've ever had I wouldn't pay $1 for it ever again, the office store gone,  Five Guys Burgers & Fries, Starbucks, and many other high priced joints. You have some good stores left but only a handful.  The rebuilding of WTC has been a very slow work in progress and in my opinion the developer is full of baloney he's been dragging his feet for years and it seems like nothing has been happening in the area nothing but a bunch of metal, mess, dirt, etc.  I work in the area so I'm faced with the after effects of 9/11 everyday like it or not.  It took me a while not to be afraid to work around there but I pray everyday that I arrive safe to work everyday and to home the same way.  This developer realized that he would never realize his dream without the port authority since they're also supposed to build a new transit center as well.   I only saw the progress b/c of the news reports b/c I try to stay away from the actual ground zero sight even after all these years past I really don't like to see up and close and personal.   Yesterday should have been dedicated to the victims their families and to our city but of course what was going on massive rallies about the WTC mosque proposal near Park 51. I work in the area and in my opinion I think that this developer is an idiot.  I think that he just wants to prove a point and for him to say that it's not next to ground zero is a load of BS b/c it's very close I checked it out myself.  I disagree with the mayor which I've never liked to begin and the other government officials.  I just don't get why people are making this into a race issue when it's clearly not well I speak for myself when I say that maybe for some it is and feel sorry for them.   Religious freedom is protected by our Constitution I understand that but why near ground zero? There is a mosque in that area but of course the media doesn't mention that b/c they're just as guilty in stirring up controversy.  Where is the respect for the people of NYC, the people who lost their lives and their families?  You have people who bravely went into the debris, rubble and smoke  to save people and some have health issues due to this and the city and Albany have turned their backs on them. I think it's very disrespectful and insensitive to the people of this city.    I also fear for my safety and millions of other new yorkers how do they know that terrorists and militant groups aren't funding it or won't go there to case the buildings and plan on something else?  I just heard in the news that one of the funders had a tie to a militant group and I hope it's not true but that scares the crap out of me b/c I work near ground zero so you'd better believe I wanted them investigated to make sure no illegal, dangerous activity is being done.  If this developer is so headstrong about building there than he shouldn't have a problem being investigated if he has nothing to hide.   Each political group is taking this issue as a scape goat which has also made me question which political party I side with? I vote Democrat but I don't always agree with everyone or like all the candidates, I was thinking of switching to Independent but I don't really know much about them to say if I'd agree with them very confusing indeed. Politics in itself is very dirty and most are full of it no matter what side they're on they promise the sun moon stars and the world till they get into office.   I see the shape that this country is in economically, globally, and its very scary indeed.   I hope that they can come to a resolution to this issue b/c this is going to have disastrous consequences if a meeting of the minds doesn't occur if not another location a multiple faith complex where all faiths can worship and praise their faiths.   The Florida pastor who wanted to burn the quaran to me should be ashamed to even call him self a pastor.  What real clergy member would suggest something so disrespectful and evil? Book burning in itself is despicable.  Most clergy would want to encourage peace and a peaceful resolution.  I may not be familiar or understand the Islamic culture and religion but their entitled to live their lives and practice their faith and I would never suggest the destruction of any religious book, statue, church, etc.  A real pastor wouldn't encourage blasphemy and that's exactly what that is.   He didn't think of the consequences of burning the book would have? I can assure there'd be one angry group of people out there and rightfully so and he didn't think about retaliation toward his church his members or even his own family? I think it's ridiculous.   He had no business coming to NY and I think he should keep his mouth shut and stay in Gainesville where he belongs.  I think we have our own extremists right here in our own backyard and people like that are very dangerous they take religion and use a verse of the scriptures or a even a certain book and interpret it for what they want it not what it actually means.  I think this is why I was never really attracted to religion b/c of all the controversy it causes.  I know we should go to church to worship seek mental clarity etc. but I've also see a lot of hypocrisy in the church especially the members they think b/c they're stuck in church every Sunday that makes them a good person and it doesn't it takes a lot more than that.  I just don't like that holier than thou attitude, we're all sinners and far from perfect it's just been my experience that the biggest hypocrites are in church and usually live in the tallest glass houses.   I went off topic here but I hope to one day see a newly rebuilt WTC that one day I may be able to take my son and show him a part of history of what once was.  To the families of 9/11 you will never be forgotten we will never forget that day.  Look to the lord for comfort and peace to guide you through.

nothing stays the same...

It's been a while since I've blogged on here since I started mobile blogging.  With my hectic schedule I usually have no time for the computer once I get home I'm usually busy with the baby or something else or I'm too tired. I like mobile blogging better b/c easily accessible through my cell phone and I can blog while I'm on the go or while I'm at work and my blogs are kept private something I don't have at work.  I was happy to see Friday it didn't even seem like we had Monday off this past week we don't have another long weekend until next month I look forward to them especially I get an extra day off and on rare occasions sleep in.   I like the cooler weather even though today it seemed much warmer than yesterday.   Yesterday I felt like taking a walk it was sunny day with a nice breeze so I went down to au bon pain b/c I love their soups and pastries but that's in once in a while rare treat b/c while they're excellent it's also very expensive.  I go in and much to my surprise they have the soups out in the center of the place in big metal pots with ladles and I thought what the heck is this! I sure wasn't expecting this b/c I'm not good with serving soup to myself I tried it a deli and burned myself and considering that it's kind of expensive I figured I'd get the same white glove service lol I guess not I sure wish I knew who's bright idea it was to make it self service so I can tell them off I'm kidding let's just say it took me a while and someone wanted chicken soup too and looked annoyed but hey I was traumatized and I sure as heck didn't want to get burned again.  I've noticed this pattern at a lot of places the self service option seems like not only are they implementing more self service in a lot of places what you're getting isn't the same quality either.  I think customer service and interaction isn't important anymore seems like with everything we pay more to get less, less quantity, less quality, and more attitude.  What pissed me off though was when I get to work it seemed like I had more broth and vegetables than noodles but I'm sure had I not been such a chicken to serve myself or had I been served in the first place like before lol I probably would've gotten a better bowl well better luck next time.  I also treated myself to their apple streudel which is excellent the pasty is flaky and has a crunch and the apple filling is wonderful now I'm getting myself hungry again.  I plan to try the cheese cake filled croissant next.  Today my day consisted of the usual getting woke up by my son early and he's revved up like the energizer bunny to watch Disney channel make breakfast clean this house and by mid morning I'm exhausted ready for a nap myself.  We did our grocery shopping today at Pathmark and while we were driving down there I couldn't believe the a-holes we encountered on the road.  Some ppl just can't drive.  While on our way down this car almost hits us these two idiots my husband yelled and she still kept going almost hitting us I was so mad b/c the baby was in the back seat if anything would've happened to my son I would've beat the hell out of her stupid overstuffed ass!  They looked as if they did nothing wrong which made me want to strangle even more but I realize that trash isn't worth it even if you think are you're right.  While I know where I live is okay not perfect I notice the decline in the old neighborhood as I was passing the streets going to Pathmark you can see the quality of people is not the same a lot of the old places I remember are gone like the old Carvel on Rockaway blvd, Mr. G's pizza maybe he saw the same decline I've been seeing and decided to move on I can't say I blame him I sure wouldn't want to run a business where the majority of my customers are a bunch of rude low class self-entitled jerks.  I miss it though b/c I as well as many others had been going there for years.  Another good chinese restaurant Hei Lok on 101 Ave has different owners now too, prices changed and the food isn't the same quality I once knew everything changes and sadly not always for the better.  I'm kind of glad I didn't get an apartment in that area b/c I'm sure I wouldn't have stood there long.   While I know where I live isn't perfect but it's relatively quiet and yes there are some morons and undesirables it's something that's not out of control.  I decided after I moved from my old neighborhood I'm not going to settle for being stuck some place where I'm not happy.  I never really liked Yonkers.  I assimilated into living in Westchester but I never felt really comfortable with it.  I lived in an area where it was considered ghetto and it's sad because not everyone who lives in an area is ghetto sometimes they're just low income but they're decent people and then there are the people who fit the description "ghetto trash" to a T.  I saw plenty of it people drinking in the street, having bbqs, empty beer bottles, etc. in the lobby the street garbage everywhere people have no manners, no self control and their kids are the same.  I never got that mentality ok so you're poor so that means you have act like an idiot talk like an idiot, drink,  take no pride in your community, and complain about everything yet you bring no positives to the table? It's a bunch of bs!   I was raised far from rich but I know one thing I didn't want to be associated with people like that.  I have self respect I have class manners and most importanly I do care about my community and others.  Some people would probably classify anyone who thinks like me a "sell out" wannabe"  well screw them.  What's that anyway? I never got that bs attitude so only white people can excel have higher standards of living and achieving.  gtfo! No we have to want to do better for ourselves, we should never settle for less or conform to a certain way of living for fear of what some people will say.  If anything people with that attitude are the ones who say that crap b/c they themselves lack the ambition and are afraid of trying to be different.  Its not easy being different but it can be done.  I've never been a follower and I never will.  I've always been independent in my thinking and overall.   Today we went to a street fair and these are nice while the closure of the streets can be a pain its okay for a short time.  They have typical street fair food like zeppoles, funnel cake, lemonade, all the food you shouldn't eat but always want some at the street fair.  I put my son on the merry go round and a car ride and I have to say that some parents are a bunch of idiots.  Someone got mad b/c I put my son for a second ride on the merry go round and I thought I wonder who's more mature the kid or you! that's no crime and my son loved it I changed him from the low horse to the one that rises up and down kids love things like that the crowd was big and after the car ride it was time to go home.   Tomorrow is the last day of it we may go back but not definite sometimes the crowds can be too much.  Another thing they had was ponies, donkeys and a llama nice to look like but stink like crazy and shit like it's going out of style which is gross the one my son pet dropped a big one and we were trying not to step in it.  I think they should put a bag under them like the ones in Manhattan it would be more sanitary and less of a mess to clean up.  Well it's after 11 and I'm going to go relax and watch some TV before I go to bed and get some rest.  I'm going to try to make an effort to post more blog entries in my original blog but it seems like I'm more on the go than at home, we'll see.