break from the heat

Today is a welcome break from the heat, while it's still warm outside it's nothing like yesterday.  I took a walk to Au Bon pain today and it felt great outside there was actually a breeze picked up my 12 veggie soup and a very small frozen yogurt.  Yesterday felt like a sauna outside.  I went to go grab a sub at quiznos at lunch and I thought I was going to melt into the ground, I needed something sweet to keep me cool so I went into the tasti d lite frozen yogurt place and got myself an orange creamsicle frozen yogurt.  My sweet tooth is my weakness but the good thing is their frozen yogurt is from 70-100 calories so I try to keep it small and pick of the 70 calorie list.  As the day went on I finished my work and almost lost my work due to a computer glitch but I was able to save it thank goodness b/c no daily report is like I didn't show up for work, it's the only thing that proves how much work I've done.  After the aggravating start to my day,  toward the end he texts me wanting "peace" and I always get annoyed with this statement b/c I'm thinking if you really wanted peace why do you have to be such a douche!.  You get what you give!  I needed to clear my head and get some distraction so I decided to visit the flushing location of the gym I belong to and let me say that I can't believe how many people ride the #7 train it's crazy I took the express down there and it got pretty full by the time it left the city.  Just my luck I sat in the double seater only to have some stinky alcoholic sitting next to me nodding off.   He went towards my shoulder and I gave him eye contact the gtfo off of me.  I was hoping the train would hurry up and get to the last stop which is where I needed to get off.  I finally get off at Main St. and I can't believe how crowded and how smelly it is it always smells like crap rotten garbage, etc.  and I see that there is no more old navy sometimes change isn't always a good thing I look around to see that a lot of stores have come and gone there it's sad but it's the sign of the times and the economy.  I winded up walking in the wrong direction for the gym and had to walk 3 blocks in the opposite direction now had it not felt like 100+ degrees outside with the heat index and humidity that wouldn't have been too bad.  The walk back was cardio in itself.  I get to the gym and I have to say that I wasn't impressed.  The locker room is like a rubix cube and what is it with these narrow lockers that not even my skinny reebok bag fits in their sometimes with my purse you shouldn't have to smash your belongings inside to fit I get they don't want anyone to keep things in their overnight but seriously sufficient space to accomodate a regular size gym/duffel bag isn't being too unreasonable considering they have showers and ppl bring things to shower and change after gym.  After finding an empty locker and changing I went to take my place on the floor ready for the zumba course and I look to see the ppl I spotted a few annoying idiots there's a group in every class I don't talk to anyone I'm just an introvert like that unless someone really catches my attention.  There was a fool there saying that no one should be let in late I was sthu it's a class not an audition.  The class started and I liked this instructor she's pretty good I was actually able to follow a routine that I couldn't follow with mr zorro so that's a plus.  The class is usually 45 minutes but after 30 I was tired and I think it was due to the walk, the heat and going to the gym the night before so it was time to go home.  I walk back to the bus stop and was happy to get inside an air conditioned bus.  I come home to unwind and have dinner and jr greets me in the hallway and I have dinner which he insists on picking off of he eats 3 meals at the sitter and I wonder how he finds the room to eat even more.  I watched some cartoons with him bath and to bed I fell out again and I hope this morning would be an easier and cleaner morning than previous.  It went pretty smooth I'm going to give the gym a rest today and possibly go back tomorrow or if not friday.  I received a call from the counseling center and it was a therapist for individual sessions and I was glad that someone was finally able to accommodate my schedule and I look forward to meeting with them tomorrow and I look forward the journey of going to therapy again, when I was going years back I felt better about myself and noticed the change after a while.  I need to try this out and considering all the things that have been happening lately I need to have someone whose impartial and will understand what I'm feeling w/o judgement or emotional involvement.  Well it's almost 2:00 and lunch is over time to get back to work and finish up for what's left of the day and hope for what I always hope for a smooth uneventful commute home.

hot tuesday

Yesterday was a busy day for me at work I did a lot of work trying to get out all of the mail which is a time consuming task in itself, entering results, and posting returns, etc.  At the end of the day I was tired and ready to go.  Today should be an easier day now that the mail was sent out, until the next batch comes along *sigh*.  I woke up this morning and made sure I heard my cell alarm go off and the room felt very humid and warm.  It took me a while to get out of bed b/c it just feels to good but then I pryed myself out and hit the shower got dressed had my instant breakfast and by the time I finished I see jr is up and is where he shouldn't be by the computer desk and has a book about cars in his hand.  I looked at the weather on my phone and it's going to be a hot one today 87 I can feel even as early as 5:30 it was already 79 degrees.  Well tomorrow it's going to be hot 91 and thurs 97 it's too bad I have to be at work both days especially thursday I'd rather be at one of the city pools or Jones Beach.  Had I not been sick I probably would've played hooky Thursday and went off to the beach or pool.  I got sun block this time #50 I'm sure going to need it b/c getting a sun burn is painful and uncomfortable.  I get into the city early which I love and go to my favorite spot lot less and I was looking to grab a snapple from the discount store but of course it was closed so I went to lot less browsed around and got a few things.  By the time I left the store the other place was open got a lipton brisk and off to work.  I punch in and most people aren't here early on this floor I say good morning to whom ever is here sometimes I get a response sometimes not but that's a whole another show I just don't understand why some people in the office are so stupid, if someone says good morning to you why can't you respond? It's just basic manners but I guess some ppl don't even have that.  No one is implying by saying good morning or night that you're going to be #1 on that person's social list, lunch buddy, or facebook.  I was sitting at my desk and there is a co-worker of ours who comes to talk to the other one across from me doesn't even say gm to me until I say it to her.  I just do it to hit her over the head and to prove a point.  She's one of those people who are "funny" like that and have a lot of emotional problems and you know what I know life isn't perfect I blog about when I'm not having a good day or stressed all the time but to constantly be in that mode even at work isn't emotionally healthy at all.  My drama, my bs stays right outside the subway stairs before I enter this place b/c frankly it's none of anyone's business and do I really want to known as someone who's always in a funk.  A lot of these people down here can use some professional help or medication (prozac, paxil, etc.).  I have no time for stupidity which is why I do my part to show I have class and respect and I make sure I always have my ipod charger to tune it all out while I work.  I kind of like the fact that I'm all the way in the back now sure wish I was upstairs.  Changing the subject entirely I have to wonder what the hell was Anthony Weiner thinking when he posted or sent those pictures on his twitter account?  First of all why would you even say something so stupid like you weren't sure if it was your **** or not? WHAT!!! I think every guy knows their own package and would know if it was theirs or not. I think he lost all credibility when he lawyered up right away, if someone has nothing to hide they don't need to seek the help of an attorney.  His wife should've smacked him up the side with his cell phone.  You're willing to ruin your political career over something to stupid and ridiculous I have an idea why didn't you just send the pictures to your wife's phone? What really gets me is why do people continue to post or say stupid things on facebook, twitter, myspace and think that they're not going to have consequences for their actions.  If he would've come clean and admitted to what he did I think people would've respected him a lot more, now he's embarrassed himself, his constituents, and his wife and I think his chances for running for mayor are slim to none now but who knows if Client #9 who was our former governor messed around with prostitutes and had his intimate life all over the news, etc. has his own talk show on a very well respected news channel anything is possible I guess.  I guess we hold politicians, and high profile figure to a higher moral standard than most people but maybe we should stop doing that and look at them as human beings who also have weaknesses, faults, and make mistakes.  We're all human and screw up but as hard as it is we learn from it (hope we do anyway) and move on when the dust settles, people will forget about this and focus on the next high light in the press.  Well it's 9 am and it's time to stop blogging and tackle the work.  Hoping everyone has a good day and enjoys the sun.