another work week starts

Another weekend has zoomed by and as always I feel even more tired than Fridays at the end of the day.  I hope to one day be able to relax and do nothing even if it's for one day.  There's always something to do or some place to go or something we need and even though I gave up laundry a long time ago I still feel tired. Last week a fellow co-worker had a passing in her family and another one with a child that is ill that's very sad seems like everyone is going through something it's sad b/c we should feel empathy for everyone but I realize here everyone just does for certain people and not all and that is something that I just don't swallow well but it is what it is office politics or just plain human stupidity.  I will give her my condolences but I wanted to give her privacy and space b/c having been through that the last thing you want to deal with at times is other people even though they mean well.  This is why I avoid certain ppl altogether if they want to think i'm a b* b/c I choose not to deal with certain ppl that's their problem an opinion is like an a* h* everybody has one.  Some people you can take in small doses some you just avoid.  This weekend was like most did some cleaning mopping of the floors separating recylcing which I hate taking out trash all the fun stuff.   I was exhausted at the end of the day until I was told to take a shower and get ready and he surprised me with taking me out to dinner an early Vday thing I think we should've stayed local or gone to long island b/c we went into Manhattan looking for a restaurant recommended to us and when we arrived it was crowded and it is to be expected it's a saturday, the times sq theater district and it looked a little upscale and I was dressed with jeans so that was out.  We then looked for Viva Pancho a good mexican restaurant only to be disappointed b/c they closed down. The crowds were horrendous and I just felt like taking the train back home but we went to Planet Hollywood I think we should've just went to BBQ's or just stayed local.   The city is not what it once was not like when I was younger anyway,there's too many people, trains don't run like they used to, a lot of good places have closed down.  We decided to go there to try something different but the wait was 30 minutes long and you had to wait on stairs almost as if you're waiting to get into a club and people enter and exit through the same staircase I wonder what genius thought of that.  Then of course I get stuck waiting behind someone who smelled like old cheese, I mean really wtf you're going to hang out and you can't even take a bath seriously?  I was hoping the line moved fast b/c I couldn't take it anymore and neither could the other couple behind us.  We finally arrived at the top of the stairs and they take pictures of you which I find out are not free.  While it's nice to try something different and see things of old hollywood movies, this place in my opinion is an overpriced tourist trap.  When the hostess asked us where we were from and I said NY she looked surprised I guess b/c they're not used to see native new yorkers there b/c most of us would never pay what they charge lol.  We were seated and I looked at our menu which wasn't very extensive and our waiter came to our table some Simon Cowell sounding guy lol which is even more laughable to me b/c this restaurant is in NY!  We ordered our food and I made the mistake of ordering chicken fettucine when it arrived the butter sauce was thick and the chicken while grilled wasn't seasoned and sort of over seared.  I bet the Olive Garden's version of this would give it a good kick in the pants! He had the salmon but he said it was ok the dessert made up for it we shared a chocolate cake and ice cream on side vanilla bean which was good but I felt stuffed afterward so we walked it off a little.  We went to the Disney Store and I love going in there to look at the toys and revisiting child hood movies I was looking for some Disney classic dvds but didn't see any.  After this we went home which was like an obstacle course due to all the MTA service diversions.  When riding the L train home I saw a crowd on the train that's nothing like the crowds I remember a lot of bohemian, artsy fartsy, etc. sort of people who ride this line now I guess that's due to the gentrification they've done in a certain area of Brooklyn now and some of those people honestly are quite annoying there was one on the train who just wouldn't shut up and I was so glad they got off at the next stop.  I don't like gentrification but that's for another blog.  I had a good time but I can't I would go there again or recommend that place to others.  Affordability and good quality food count for a lot.  Yesterday I made a trip to Walmart picked up items we needed replaced the radio in the baby's room and we had some good old spanish food from the cuchifrito on knickerbocker ave.  Nothing too heavy chicken soup, stuffed potato ball, and a coconut drink that's good but taste even better during the summer time.  I put jr on quarter rides but the horse was dead walked a few more blocks and found a working one and he enjoyed it put him on it for 3 rides and we left.  It felt good to finally arrive at home where I felt my eyes close a few times and before you know it's 8:00 and time to get ready to start another work week.  I finally spoke to my grandfather after not speaking with him for a while I actually sent him a Vday card from jr and wrote him a letter.  He hasn't been feeling well and he is going to stop working he should've a long time ago.  He's going to be 78 yrs old and I know he feels sad about family situation pertaining to my immediate family but I told him that's he has to start thinking about himself and his health and at the same time I feel angry b/c I'm tired of dealing with this drama myself.  It makes me afraid that I may one day be that age and still having to work and I don't want that at all. I want to retire and enjoy my life which is why we have to be smart now that we're young.  My grandfather has worked since a young boy and it's time for him to rest and I told him whatever it is decisions will have to be made and I know they will affect certain ppl but that's life sadly I care a lot about who it will affect but he is getting old and needs to relax already. I know we're all the talk of the family and that's another thing that pisses me off b/c everyone seems to think that their lives are perfect and how I guess why people are in a certain situation is their fault.  It's a hierarchy of family the haves and have nots something I will also save for another posting.  I told him how I felt about everything and I have to say that sometimes he can be very insensitive at times.  I then questioned him about the conversation that occured between him and a family member of mine and he refuses to tell me what happened.  We then talk about relocation and that's not happening and I confronted him and I believe that he just doesn't want to put us at risk economically but I also believe a deeper part of it he doesn't  want to deal with the bs either and I can't say I blame him but a part of me was looking forward to leaving NY I guess this is a goal that will have to be placed on hold till things get better economically and situations change.  Well it's after 9:00 and I need to start working but no work has come in yet.  Today is Vday and it doesn't even seem like it I guess it's b/c it fell on a Monday.  It turns out we both have President's Day off which is a good thing I guess maybe I will be able to get some rest after all.  I look forward to planning the next vacation and this time it's going to be a destination package no family visits I can always save that for later in the summer time or whenever time permits this time around I want to explore and enjoy the unknown.  Well time for me to end this too many eyes around.

annoying day

This morning was like any other had to be woken up again I got ready had my breakfast and got jr ready which isn't always easy b/c he can be grouchy in the morning.  I drop him off and as I turn the corner I see my other bus coming and I ran very fast to catch it almost busting my ass and getting hit by a car now that's dedication to get to work lol nope I just didn't want to be late yet again.  I get on my train start my ride praying that it would be an uneventful commute and it sure was thank goodness I guess they figured they put me through crap for 2 days in a row. I get to work and warm up with my hot chocolate read my news papers and unwind and I begin my work day which was pretty slow and boring and the bad weather sure it didn't help.  I get bored during the day a lot so I surf the net, read, etc. and finally my lunch time comes and I'm ready to leave and they come to me telling me that they need a translation and I could feel myself getting annoyed b/c technically that's not my job and I asked if it could b/c I'm going to lunch and they said no and I was like wtf I go over there and get on the phone and this lady really pissed me off b/c she calls the hot line and when I try to ask her all the info the other rep couldn't due to language barrier she was taking a very long time and she's the one who initiated the call you would think she'd have all of the info and I don't know if there was a bad connection or what but it didn't sound clear so I winded up misspelling the name the other person didn't even have our ID number or tell me the name was hyphenated I finally get whatever I could and leave.  I go back to my desk to attempt to find this in the system it takes me forever to then post the notes in the system and 20 minutes is shaved off my lunch time I was fuming heck I even said it as I walked over I'm not doing this again i'm not a translator. My whole point is she gets to go on her freaking lunch break with no interruptions from now on I'm not doing anything and I'm going to make sure I disappear before 1.  I know that sounds screwed up but I don't get paid for this shit and frankly I believe a lot of people take advantage of people who are bilingual and I think people who work as bilingual customer service etc etc are also underpaid in my opinion. The thing with spanish is people don't realize that no one speaks it all the same there are different countries, differents words and expressions and while many words are universal sometimes it's not uncommon to come across words or things you may not understand.  Now I'm a good worker professional team player etc but I'm no one's fool either.  A lot of people take kindness for weakness and that infuriates me I could've easily said no and been protected by the union contract b/c it's an out of title task. I thought to myself if I didn't need this job I would've walked right out of here that's how pissed off I was.   I then venture out in the snowy wet weather to au bon pain yeah I was a glutton for punishment to walk in the sleet and slush quite a messy sight indeed.  I got myself my favorite chicken noodle soup, an orange scone, and tried their hot chocolate for the first I figured I deserved it for all the aggravation I've been through this week with the mta and today with this stupidity and when I return I made it a point to mention that the whole thing took 20 mins off my lunch and she thanks me and tells me I could make up those 20 mins and I thought I was going to do regardless.   Today during down moments I research the FL job market again and I saw maybe two things not liking what I'm seeing still which kind of scares and discourages me at the same time.  I also looked into some hospitals here in the city b/c honestly I have to admit I'm getting sick and tired of the bs that goes on here.  I know everyone has their good and bad days at work it's normal but there comes a point in your life where you've done all you can do and it's time to move on to a new chapter.  This week I saw someone who came into the office who's working in healthcare and I thought to myself there are people I see that I really wonder how they get their jobs b/c a lot of them aren't very professional or know their material which kind of brings me to the point that sometimes people just have luck not necessarily the skills and it boggles my mind that I went to school for this and I never found work in the healthcare profession and I felt like a total failure and it was a waste of my time and efforts.  When I see all of those advertisements on TV for healthcare training or trade schools I think many of them are a bunch of thieves looking to take your money and give you false promises and get you into debt b/c seriously for you to qualify for financial aid isn't easy and let's face not too many adults these days can afford to be full time students unless you got it like that or got full financial etc.  I'd like to pursue this again but honestly my past experience left me with a very bad taste in my mouth so I'm very cautious to pursue it again maybe  just it was the wrong time of my life or just a shitty school, etc.  I just don't want to go into school which will be harder now that I have a child study get good grades and I can't find work and sadly this happens to a lot of students and our shitty economy doesn't help this.  I also think sometimes ppl don't really research the field they're interested in and make unrealistic goals for themselves while it's nice to dream at the end of the day everyone has to pay rent, utilities, eat etc.  He's watching american idol and I'm being tortured b/c some of these people are down right terrible and are a bunch of sore losers.  Some good talent has come out of this but most of the times I'd rather not watch this as it gets boring i'd rather watch CSI Hawaii Five O or some other type of show.  I'm sure it's going to be really fun to get to work tomorrow in all of that snow let's see if the MTA will be able to deal I will have a ride at least thank goodness for that.  Well it's after 10 and it's time for me to start winding down for the night.  I so wish tomorrow were Friday but still have one more day.  Tomorrow is another day let's hope it will have a better outcome than todays.