snow day

Yesterday was the preview of the snow storm and last night is when it really started coming down when I looked out the window before bed there was a lot on the ground already.  My bed felt so warm and comfortable and I had decided that I wasn't going to work and lucky I did b/c the city declared an official snow day and closed the offices.  There was no city bus service which meant I couldn't have gone even if I wanted to attempt to go to work I stood warm and dry at home,.  Now I have to go back to work tomorrow and I'm glad friday has finally arrived tomorrow. During the day I did some cleaning up and he replaced the faucet and I tried to catch up on rest.  The day goes by so fast when you're home but drags on at work for some weird reason.   I then went to the store to get some things at the supermarket and it was like an obstacle course to get around tons of piles of snow everywhere I'm sure it will be clean in the city tomorrow as they get first priority for clean up well they should put more effort into the clean ups on the side streets.

annoying day

This morning was like any other had to be woken up again I got ready had my breakfast and got jr ready which isn't always easy b/c he can be grouchy in the morning.  I drop him off and as I turn the corner I see my other bus coming and I ran very fast to catch it almost busting my ass and getting hit by a car now that's dedication to get to work lol nope I just didn't want to be late yet again.  I get on my train start my ride praying that it would be an uneventful commute and it sure was thank goodness I guess they figured they put me through crap for 2 days in a row. I get to work and warm up with my hot chocolate read my news papers and unwind and I begin my work day which was pretty slow and boring and the bad weather sure it didn't help.  I get bored during the day a lot so I surf the net, read, etc. and finally my lunch time comes and I'm ready to leave and they come to me telling me that they need a translation and I could feel myself getting annoyed b/c technically that's not my job and I asked if it could b/c I'm going to lunch and they said no and I was like wtf I go over there and get on the phone and this lady really pissed me off b/c she calls the hot line and when I try to ask her all the info the other rep couldn't due to language barrier she was taking a very long time and she's the one who initiated the call you would think she'd have all of the info and I don't know if there was a bad connection or what but it didn't sound clear so I winded up misspelling the name the other person didn't even have our ID number or tell me the name was hyphenated I finally get whatever I could and leave.  I go back to my desk to attempt to find this in the system it takes me forever to then post the notes in the system and 20 minutes is shaved off my lunch time I was fuming heck I even said it as I walked over I'm not doing this again i'm not a translator. My whole point is she gets to go on her freaking lunch break with no interruptions from now on I'm not doing anything and I'm going to make sure I disappear before 1.  I know that sounds screwed up but I don't get paid for this shit and frankly I believe a lot of people take advantage of people who are bilingual and I think people who work as bilingual customer service etc etc are also underpaid in my opinion. The thing with spanish is people don't realize that no one speaks it all the same there are different countries, differents words and expressions and while many words are universal sometimes it's not uncommon to come across words or things you may not understand.  Now I'm a good worker professional team player etc but I'm no one's fool either.  A lot of people take kindness for weakness and that infuriates me I could've easily said no and been protected by the union contract b/c it's an out of title task. I thought to myself if I didn't need this job I would've walked right out of here that's how pissed off I was.   I then venture out in the snowy wet weather to au bon pain yeah I was a glutton for punishment to walk in the sleet and slush quite a messy sight indeed.  I got myself my favorite chicken noodle soup, an orange scone, and tried their hot chocolate for the first I figured I deserved it for all the aggravation I've been through this week with the mta and today with this stupidity and when I return I made it a point to mention that the whole thing took 20 mins off my lunch and she thanks me and tells me I could make up those 20 mins and I thought I was going to do regardless.   Today during down moments I research the FL job market again and I saw maybe two things not liking what I'm seeing still which kind of scares and discourages me at the same time.  I also looked into some hospitals here in the city b/c honestly I have to admit I'm getting sick and tired of the bs that goes on here.  I know everyone has their good and bad days at work it's normal but there comes a point in your life where you've done all you can do and it's time to move on to a new chapter.  This week I saw someone who came into the office who's working in healthcare and I thought to myself there are people I see that I really wonder how they get their jobs b/c a lot of them aren't very professional or know their material which kind of brings me to the point that sometimes people just have luck not necessarily the skills and it boggles my mind that I went to school for this and I never found work in the healthcare profession and I felt like a total failure and it was a waste of my time and efforts.  When I see all of those advertisements on TV for healthcare training or trade schools I think many of them are a bunch of thieves looking to take your money and give you false promises and get you into debt b/c seriously for you to qualify for financial aid isn't easy and let's face not too many adults these days can afford to be full time students unless you got it like that or got full financial etc.  I'd like to pursue this again but honestly my past experience left me with a very bad taste in my mouth so I'm very cautious to pursue it again maybe  just it was the wrong time of my life or just a shitty school, etc.  I just don't want to go into school which will be harder now that I have a child study get good grades and I can't find work and sadly this happens to a lot of students and our shitty economy doesn't help this.  I also think sometimes ppl don't really research the field they're interested in and make unrealistic goals for themselves while it's nice to dream at the end of the day everyone has to pay rent, utilities, eat etc.  He's watching american idol and I'm being tortured b/c some of these people are down right terrible and are a bunch of sore losers.  Some good talent has come out of this but most of the times I'd rather not watch this as it gets boring i'd rather watch CSI Hawaii Five O or some other type of show.  I'm sure it's going to be really fun to get to work tomorrow in all of that snow let's see if the MTA will be able to deal I will have a ride at least thank goodness for that.  Well it's after 10 and it's time for me to start winding down for the night.  I so wish tomorrow were Friday but still have one more day.  Tomorrow is another day let's hope it will have a better outcome than todays.

MTA didn't go my way again

Today I hoped I would have an uneventful commute, it was too much to ask for the MTA to do it's job and get me to work on time.  My first train I was on was running like a turtle and when I finally get to my transfer point there was one big cluster **** on the downtown 6 service.  I hear an announcement that a downtown train is coming and not only does it come by it bypasses all of us.  I was like wtf!!!!! I as well as everyone else had to wait on that narrow platform which isn't safe for the next 6 train which of course went local and due to all of this crap I was 15 minutes late to work.  I was so annoyed and aggravated especially that today was jr speech therapy session.  I managed to make it here after 5 which isn't too bad.  Tomorrow we're expecting snow and bad weather and I worry b/c this may be day 3 that I'm late to work b/c MTA can't even do their freaking job when the weather is good expecting competent service during a snow storm is way too much to ask.  I punched in and I went back outside to dunkin donuts to get my usual hot chocolate and donut and ms congenialty charges me only for the hot chocolate but not the donut and I then said what did you charge me for?What I really felt like saying is get your head of your a**!  I gave her another dollar for the donut, isn't that ridiculous a $1 for a donut I remember when they were so cheap.  I grab my daily metro and am ny and off to work and begin my day.  When you're late or you oversleep your whole day is thrown off and 4:00 comes way faster for everyone else who was lucky to arrive on time.  I then start my day and I attempt to go into our system and I get a bunch of error msgs and I'm think now this nonsense do you think it occured to anyone to alert anyone in systems? Nope.  If it weren't for the fact that I took a screen shot of the pg and emailed the head of systems it wouldn't have gotten fixed.  This is type of crap that annoys me at times and I'm not trying to pat myself on the back b/c I did that but come one we all have work to do and in life you need to take initiative and it's sad that no one takes the iniative.  I got a ride to pick jr up at the sitter which I'm eternally grateful for any chance I get that I don't have to deal with the mta I live for the moment we got home just in time and his second session was good he repeated more words but still has to work at self control b/c he started to get distracted very easily we also thought that a half hr isn't enough so this is something that I'm going to address this with the service coordinator.  I managed to get all the mail done by lunch 125 letters to be exact and I headed to a store called tents & trails where I went to look at some boots and the north face coats and I tried on a long black metropolis coat and while I like black I was hoping that they had other colors but they didn't in plus sizes darn! It was 200+ so I haven't decided what I'm going to do yet I may go back and put it on lay away I've realized that I want to start taking more pride in my appearance and buying better things I work hard for my money and it goes to many things especially stuff for jr household items bills etc. but rarely anything for me and while I'm not going to be ghetto fabulous I'd like to treat myself to a good thing once in a while b/c good things cost money they don't make things like they used to Totes used to be good boots now they stink, the materials are cheap, they aren't true to size which is why they were returned you have to spend 100 and up for good boots or foot wear period sad but true.  He came home and we were exhausted he ordered a pizza for all of us I gave jr his bath read him some stories and he fell asleep pretty fast and we watched some tv and I saw a little bit of the president's state of the union address and I was impressed with it but as a country we have a lot of work to do, we used to be on the very top and now it's embarrassing how things have gotten.  It's going to take a long time to get this country back to the way it was and it may never fully get there due to the carelessness and crooks of corporate america and wall street but it's high time people of both sides especially the red side realize that there is no quick fix to the economy or any other situation it's going to take a lot of hard work and time and no matter who is responsible the problem is here now get to work and start to fix it and get our country back on track.  On that note it's been a tiring day with a very mentally exhausting beginning and I'm off to shower and to hit the bed I hope the snow isn't too bad tomorrow.  I'll be aiming to get to work on time again for the 3rd day in a row let's see if that actually happens.

weekends fly by too fast

The weekend has come to a close and this weekend we got to spend some couples time together going to the movies and to the olive garden for dinner this is a rare occurence but I cherish it when it happens.  We don't get to have time alone like that and I can see how it's very easy for people to get so wrapped up in the daily rat race, dealing with their kid or kids, running errands, house work, etc.  and they barely take time out for each other.  It felt weird not having our son with us b/c he goes everywhere with us he's even been with us to the olive garden.  It felt nice to have some adult time alone.  We spoke about the relocation if it's going to happen or not, and many other topics and we're still unsure about a lot of things.  The dinner was great their soups and excellent and their desserts are decadent and delicious.  When I left I was stuffed, we both were and we went to the sports authority where I treated myself to a pair of sorel boots that were quite expensive but I look at this way it's nice to spoil yourself once in a while it felt good to buy something for myself for a change rather than paying a bill or buying other things.  Then to walmart to pick up household stuff and I couldn't believe how crowded it was the check out lines were outrageous and I came across my pet peeve yet again not enough cashiers open I mean seriously it's Saturday!!! You have 20 lines all 20 should be open especially at the height of the weekend rush and you have idiots trying to jump the line or to express line where it moving slower than a tortoise I have an idea einstein why not self check out lol ah new yorkers most of us have zero patience and are in a rush to go absolutely no where! We then proceeded to home depot which I hate that store b/c it stinks and I have no idea about anything having do with hardware, repair, building, etc. to get a replacement part and after that it was off to the movies we saw the Green Hornet it was an okay movie the special effects were a little overdone and it was a so called 3D movie I think maybe one or two things were 3D kind of disappointing in that area.  When we arrived home our son was still up and wasn't happy when his father put him in his crib he cried for a few minutes but then conked out.  Last night I felt really tired and my lovely neighbors were blasting their music for 3 hours you'd think there was a latin quarter on the 1st floor of this building and I opened the door and I hear all of this loud talking, etc. and I'm like wtf is this shit? It's after midnight.  I wanted to call the cops so bad.  This is a total lack of respect and consideration for the other tenants in the building.  I tried filing a noise complaint through 311 and that was a freaking joke I never got through to a human being and I was just so frustrated.  I like music just as much as the next person but not late at night when other people are sleeping or during the work week. I went to bed late last night and I sure didn't feel like getting up this morning but despite going to bed late jr woke up at 7:45 and I had to drag myself out of bed *sigh*.  I made him his breakfast played and after a while I really started to feel tired it was the afternoon and I put him in his crib and he cried and cried and after a while he fell asleep and slept for a few hours.  I should've done the same.  A family member came over and I got dressed and went outside for a while to get some fresh air and a break who would want to go out in this cold but trust me when you need a breather like I did the cold is the least of your concerns.  We had dinner which they prepared afterward I felt so tired I felt my eyes close that usually happens after you've had a good meal I struggled to stay awake since jr was still up.  I changed him and gave him a bath dressed him in pjs read him some books and off to bed.  Now I finally have some down time and according to my regular schedule I should've been in a bed a while ago.  I brought my clothes out to the livingrm for tomorrow morning so I won't have to search for anything in the dark and half asleep.  Watching bits and pieces of Hawaii Five O love that show but it's 11:00 and I have to start getting ready for bed going to hit the shower and catch some zzzz's make sure my cell phone alarm is set extra loud b/c it's Monday and I'm slower moving than any other day of the week.  Tomorrow will be frigid temps again, not looking fwd to it.

another day another dollar

This morning began with me getting ready to go work and my son putting me through wringer yet again, he wanted to take his leap frog computer with us and when I took it away all hell broke loose.  I missed my bus again and I hoped I wouldn't be too late but it doesn't help my commute timing when the idiots at metropolitan ave decide to start mopping the trains and posting signs. I'm wtf is wrong with the MTA well I have a laundry list but seriously this is rush hour? can't you post notices on off hours and same with cleaning the cars especially mopping them many times they don't even do this and I can make great timing on the bus and the train stalls there it's so aggravating.  This leaves me little time to make a stop at dunkin donuts the atm or any other quick stop before I get to work and then throw in the elevators acting up.  On my ride to work I noticed a woman coming in with two small children and then I noticed some rude ghetto bitch accusing her of pushing her I thought to myself gtfo it's way too early in the morning for this shit.  I looked and she didn't push her at all this has happened although not to the extreme as this stupid idiot did first of all she looked like a hs student and the woman argued back I think people target certain people for different reasons a lot of times people underestimate ppl and think they won't fight back well I think she was wrong for doing that and if someone came near my kid and stroller I would go off.  These are the reasons I avoid the subways like the plague with my child.  Not only are they filthy and full of germs they're also full of a-holes and crazy people.   After that episode I see another einstein get on with leggings low cut socks and low top sneakers exposing her ankles wtf is that? did you get dressed in the dark? Well my train gets to my transfer point in which I catch the 6 and it stalls wonderful for me and I'm trying not to think about the minutes passing by and how long I will have to stay behind.  I finally get to my stop and I walk to dunkin donuts which I dread b/c there are two clerks there that I can't stand they're both very rude and I've come close to cursing one of them out well I get on line to order my stuff and she's trying to get my order but still talking to someone else so she obviously didn't hear me she tells the other with an attitude to take my order I'm like whatever at this point I don't give a **** who does it just give me my stuff so I can gtfo.  I take my stuff get my metro and am ny and off to work.  I show my id to the guards who in my opinion are a bunch of rude aholes and proceed to the elevator when I punch in 8 minutes which I hate b/c after 4 the clock moves soooo slow for me to leave.  I get to my desk unwind and warm up check my e-mail check a few web pgs and I begin my work and this week I've done at lot of work which I also did today and of course due to printer malfunction we're all connected to the same printer and it's too much work for these lazy clockwatcher to sort through the print outs and sort out what's theirs.  We ran out of toner b/c of this and now the person in charge of computer dept says he's not going to order a new printer and I'm like gtfo you'd rather wait for a part for a printer that we know is on it's last leg than order a new one I told my co worker he acts as if he's paying for the printer out of his pocket he needs to authorize the purchase of a new one so that all of us will be able to get the job done all of this stupidity and dealing with the mundane of every day.By the end of the day I was tired I printed out my daily reports and was ready to get out of there but had to stay 8 extra minutes that usually can make me miss the train   Went to quiznos sub today to get my favorite chicken carbonora sub which tastes great every time, tried their soup the last time also great.  Then I find out I had to pick up jr b/c he got stuck late at work which I dread but then I got a ride which made my life so much easier.  He then brought some pio pio chicken which tastes so good but it will make you thirsty like crazy we all had some then jr decides to dump his food on the floor and I'm already feeling tired but he cleaned it up.  I gave him a bath read him books and off to bed.  Tomorrow we're expecting more snow and I'm glad that I will have a break from dropping him off this is rare but when it happens I make sure to always catch the early train which most people are still asleep or barely conscious and it's nice and quiet and I get to the city nice and early b/c I definitely want to get to work on time on friday so that I may leave exactly at 4.  We're watching NCIS and I should've been in bed a half hr ago but there goes the insomnia again well I had better get to bed or I won't be up on time tomorrow.  The things we deal with in a day it's ridiculous sometimes.

slow moving day

Today began exactly as I thought it would I couldn't bring myself to wake up and I didn't hear my alarm had it not been for the fact that he came into the room I would've been late.  Last night after experiencing a stressful day I had the worst case of insomnia but I eventually fell asleep but it always seems like the night flies by and just when you're comfortable warm under your blanket and in a real good deep sleep is when my cell phone alarm goes off and it's time for me to pry myself out of bed.  It felt like monday instead of tuesday.  This morning's weather wasn't good at all snow on the ground not as much as the blizzard or previous storm but freezing rain and sheets of ice frozen over night sure don't help the commute at all.  I was grateful to him that he dropped us off b/c I sure as heck didn't want to walk in that with jr.  When we arrived at the sitter house I get out of car to take him and I was walking slow I almost slipped and fell I was wondering where the heck where the salt trucks that this ice was that thick. I had to walk really slow and it was drizzling I ring the bell it's freezing cold and I get no response mind you my son was sick and is taking medication so I'm getting more pissed off by the minute and I finally ring the bell again and the door opens but it's someone else not the sitter and I'm wondering wtf is wrong with an adult who can let someone wait out in the cold with a small child b/c you didn't like what a parent said to you I mean seriously it never ceases to amaze to what lengths people's stupidity and lack of maturity reach at times.  I signed him in and he's just a kid he runs in to the house and I leave and the "adult" and I use that term loosely never showed her face.  If I was in that ghetto state mind of mind I probably would've told her ass off but she truly isn't worth me wasting my breath over.  What's wrong with people is they like the idea of running a business and they like money but they have no professionalism or any business etiquette at all you would think a return of a phone call would be their priority but it's not it's one big disorganized cluster f***.   My next day off is Feb 22 and I'm going to make a back up plan b/c i'm not going through this nonsense again.  I get to work only to find the gate closed to city hall park and I had to walk around it which made me later to work.  I was freezing grabbed a large hot chocolate at dunkin donuts my daily am ny and metro papers and headed off to work.  I did a few things and began my work day I did a lot of work or maybe it just seemed like a lot but I sure felt heavy handed and tired so I know I won't have any problem falling asleep tonight.  On my ride home the MTA screwed up as always J train was slow and behind we get on the train it was packed we get off at essex to get the M no where in sight we get on another J train and finally get the M in myrtle ave-bway.  I was so annoyed b/c I had to be home on time since today was jr first speech therapy session and it went pretty well except for the times where he wanted to be defiant and not follow the therapist I just wish it was at least one hour of instruction it's only a half hour and when he really got into it the session was over I signed the papers and she will be back next week, we still haven't heard from the other two therapists yet but I think he will be fine with them too I hope anyway.  As the session was going on I was trying to stay focused but I felt myself drifting off and after she left I felt like grabbing a pillow and blanket and dozing off.  Dinner was done we watched our shows jr ate and made a mess after that I gave him a bath put on his pjs and read him some books and he was asleep after 8.  Commuting is tiring especially when you have to deal with MTA incompetence all the time I hope they shoveled and salted b/c I want to get to work on time so I can leave early and be home early.  Tomorrow is hump day which means this week will hopefully fly by fast and this weekend I'm going to try very hard to relax and catch up on rest.  I'm going to do a basic cleaning up sometimes it seems like no mater how much you clean and organize it never lasts.   Well my exhaustion is taking over so I will be heading off to bed, I hope I will make up for the sleeplessness of last night. 

mlk day and politics overall

Today was MLK day and most people just see it as another day off.  I looked on my cell phone today to see various news links and blogs in his honor and I clicked on one that had a you tube link of his famous I have a dream speech and I listened to the speech and it saddened me that this man had a vision of peace equality and respect for all people in this world and in a short span of time his life was ended by an assassin I think about how different the world could've been if he were still alive and he would've been able to continue his goal or if President Kennedy and his brother Robert were here the same? or would they have been saddened by the way today's world is.  The 1960's were a time of change and turmoil in this country and I think they really wanted to try and improve our world but the ignorance and intolerance and fear of change is what motivated people to plot what became their demise while they were the pioneers of this movement and this world has made a lot of progress since those days but there is still a lot of work to be done there's still a lot of hatred, discrimination and intolerance toward certain groups, the anti-immigration sentiment, etc.  sometimes it makes me think that it's just a different type of racism now that evolves with different issues and situations.  I know that nothing is gained with violence, hatred and intolerance and everyone loses.  It seems like these days you can't even have a conversation about politics without getting into a heated argument, fight, or worse a shooting.  I hope one day that people will see past race color religion and political affiliations and see one another as people with likes dislikes hopes and goals and we may not always agree with one another you can always agree to disagree I know I have there's a lot of peoples views I don't agree with and I respect them and they're entitled to have their opinions I don't get why that's so hard for some people.  Why would anyone want to live in a world where everyone looked the same, had the same political views, religious beliefs it would be a pretty boring world I think safer to someone but very boring to me and many others.  Diversity is a good thing I just wish people would see that.  If we don't explore and think outside the box, take risks, experiment we will never experience life.  Sometimes we make good choices and some bad but life experience isn't acheived by being perfect it's being human and being human is imperfect.  I think MLK visions lives in other people in our current time who try to emulate his works and his vision and hope things will one day start looking up instead of down as it's been these past few years.